Life is not that EASY

Back to my RHUL...

The lovely founders building... This was the first place that I went to register.... What a day!

It's kind of struggling ....
Limited time...
Work smart instead of hard...
Conferences... journals...
Writings.... Experiments...
= painful if unable to manage it properly...
I thank Allah for the courages and spirits...
Just a little bit more...
Never give up!

"Peram" story

Assalamualaikum
I’m back. It’s kind of playing “cak-cak” or like eating biscuit “ sekejap ada sekejap tak ade”. I have been struggling to finish my system development. Alhamdulillah, just waiting for the final approval to proceed and of course I will ask for all of you to help me. I’ll let you know the details later on. At the same time struggling to finish writing papers! Oh hectic!
Oh I have bought my new gadget! Ipad 2. I have to queue early and of course using my diplomacy and tricky method to buy 2 instead of one ipad albeit only one ipad per person! :D It’s super long queues with so many “geek “ people who can’t wait to enjoy the ipad 2. Instead of buying it directly from Apple store, I have decided to go to Pc World. Yet, it was a bit far from my place and I have to hire a taxi! I can’t imagine how excited all others to get a new ipad.
Please enjoy some lovely dovely pictures!
After using this ipad for few days, I presume it is a great gadget! Very sleek design with fast processor and you look super cool when using it :D It’s much lighter comparing the 1st generation of ipad. The new innovation that make people can’t wait to enjoy is for sure the front and back camera. So now you can use the facetime (Not really great pixel but it’s better than nothing). I think Apple might enhance certain features in the next series of Ipad. Or it will remain the same? Based on my reading from Internet, Apple had a typical problem with Camera Issues. But I’m not so sure whether this is fact or not! I back to defer!
It’s been 2 years in Plymouth now. I am enjoying myself and able to cope my life very well. It might be because I used to live in Uk before. Those experiences thought me to be a better person and be sensible on any occasion that I faced. Culture is not really a matter now comparing to the first timer people! I have met people who can’t even mix up with local people even afraid to speak English with them. Well they don’t bite you anyway. They will try to understand you at no cost!! Trust me, it might be difficult for you to understand them at first but then again through experience you learn how to be a good communicator! In a way, you have chosen abroad to pursue your study right? So bear with it! Learn and share the knowledge. Have fun and speak up!
Sooner or later I will be back to Malaysia. My country and the place I was born. Again mix feelings because I love to be in Uk and No doubt Malaysia. By any reason I think Malaysia will always be a better place to live…
Happily ever after.
Ameen Ya Rabb

oh weather a.k.a cuaca

It's weired
It's spring but the frigidity make me always wondering...
It's a sun shiny day, but I have no choice
still need to wear 2 pieces of clothes
No flip flops yet! No short!
I can't wait to enjoy the day Like I live my life back home In Asia..
My solemn promise!

"Siapa"

Dunia ini ibarat sebuah pentas. Punya penghujung ada turun naiknya.ada ruang untuk berlari juga untuk bersembunyi. Begitu juga kehidupan kita. Ada masa suka dan duka. Hari ini kita gembira sambil tertawa mana tahu esok kita berduka nestapa. Kita dijadikan untuk mengisi kekosongan dunia memeriahkan suasana. Bicara yang lebih tepat khalifah di bumi tuhan yang agung. Bermakna kita memegang amanat untuk melestarikan kehidupan yang sesungguhnya hanya sementara. Tapi kita selalu alpa.. kita seringkali leka... kita punya agama untuk disandarkan.. setiap baris kata tingkah laku berasaskan pegangan kita... baik dan buruk perkara, kita yang tentukan... kita yang sebenarnya memilih untuk menjadi "siapa" dan bukan orang lain. walaupun sudah ditentukan tuhan. Namun kita berusaha untuk menjadi "siapa" yang kita idamkan. Angan-angan "siapa" itu tidak mustahil untuk dikejar. Kudrat dan akal fikiran yang tuhan anugerahkan kenapa tidak kita manfaatkan? adakah terlambat untuk merubah "siapa" itu sekarang lantaran zaman muda mudah disia-siakan. Yang punya generasi, didiklah mereka agar mereka tidak tergolong di kalangan mereka yang leka. Bentuklah mereka agar perjalanan hidup mereka dari kecil penuh keindahan walaupun punya suka dan suka. Curahhkan kasih didikan sempurna sifat ihsan dalam melestarikan kehidupan agar "siapa" yang dipilih oleh mereka itu nanti tidak akan pernah dikesali.

To be or not to be

It's complicated...
Struggle until you find the solution..
At one time, you smile because everything "looks" fine
then again when you start to implement it...
something starts to ruin your life...
Hectic....
emotional....
Tired....

But one thing I learnt, to be or not to be
It's you to decide.
I mean if you know the problem then you'll find the solution
albeit it's taking so much of your time
Fight with your dilemma and never give up!
and up until now I can still keep smiling...
until i can see lights at the end of tunnel..
Sigh...

Ray of Hope...

I have never done this before. 4x meeting with my supervisors. Well frankly speaking you can’t set any appointment until you have something to present or something to talk about. At least some output from your reading or experiments. And meeting them made you shaking a bit! I am not local people and please note that English is not my first language. :D Alhamdulillah so far I manage to control everything and indeed improved my communication skills as well. Hectic week but a good progress! I strived to do the programming! The language of the exploration!

It happened! The dictatorship leader of Hosni Mubaraq should step down! This is requested by millions of Egyptian people. What will happen next? Do we want this to happen in our country? Do riots solve the problem since diplomacy unable to be used as a rationale platform? Or there is no diplomacy at all in Egypt? Wondering… and baffled! And now he did!!!

It’s a journey of life especially when you live abroad. I have been living my life in United Kingdom since 2006. I went back home for a while in 2008 and now return back to pursue my study. The journey that I have been through is not easy at all. Living abroad with differences of culture, ethnicity or background made me learnt to tolerate and to be sensible! When I was in London, I stayed in student accommodation. This incident still stood there on my mind! I was cooking anchovies and you Malaysian should know how it smells right? My flat mates (a British guy) suddenly pop up to the kitchen and quickly open the windows. He did ask me what’s cooking?? I said FISH (Instead of anchovies… Frankly speaking I forgot what’s “ikan bilis” in English that period of time :P so fish suddenly pop up into my mind) He said the smells was really bad! And I felt really guilty that time liked I did a really big mistake. Then again, another incident happened with the same person and at the same place. Suddenly it was a super hanyir(Fishy) in the kitchen! I just asked him what’s cooking then he replied pork with herbs! I said directly I don’t eat pork and I don’t like the smell but I can tolerate if you want to eat it. Moral values??


Now I am living in my own flat with a living room, 1 small bedroom with queen size bed, mini kitchen and quite nice toilet(Without bath tab ok) :P I would prefer to stay alone like this instead of sharing with other people. Well sometime you will need your own space. Doing PhD of course you really need your own space! Space to talk with yourself, space to think over the boundaries and space to relax! You make the mess then you clean it. There is no further argument with other people. You bear at your own cost! I loikeee!

Quick Glance

Thinking!!!!

I have a quick glance on my blog. These thoughts suddenly came out:-

Emptiness. It’s not because I don’t want to write something but too many things to catch up. It’s unfair isn’t it? Well I believe that everyone has something to do … something to ponder etc…
Sometime I wish I could just turn back time to my kids generation. It’s so lovely to seat back and relaxes and of course I don’t have to think about what to do next. I bet everything in my mind during that time is playing, eating and fun! But this ponders me again? How long am I going to be like this? (My imagination only)

Life is not so hectic. Up until now I can still see the path. I have to facing this fate as it is my choice. I should be thankful to Allah for His blessing. Not forget to mention my family and friends for your moral supports.

Marriage. I would like to Congratulate to best buddies Shena & Izwa + kak Joen & Farouk. How I wish to go back and attend your “Big Day”. I enjoy the lovely pictures and I bet you guys are really prince and princess that day! Take these responsibilities and be brave to sail away on your journey as husband and wife. I will have to wait for mine.

Emotion. It is likely steady and stable. Keep thinking over the boundary. I have been working hard I guess but I still consider it as not enough. I am not saying not to be thankful but I know I can do much better than this. I keep praying that I have enough strength and courage to go. InsyaAllah. I can still smile . A smile is an inexpensive way to change your looks (Charles Gordy)

Coldness. It’s not about lacking of affection or enthusiasm! It’s really cold in Plymouth now. It keep me on and off for quite some time! It was so lucky as no more snow and icy roads. Well I would enjoy the snow fall moments but not when it starts to melt.

Faith. Have faith in our life.

End of 2010...

Nad n baby Yusuf

they smile

menu of the day

Alluring heh

Cute face

Hafiz n Ukyle

The happy faces

Zali & sons

The main menu

Farewell event
Alhamdulillah the event went very well…
Zalisham will go back for Good after completing his journey as PhD candidate!
Alhamdulillah and congratulation for him & the family as well
We had a great menu by ninie’s and the other family
So many foods, deserts and people!
A small token of appreciation for Zali & family.
Please enjoy some of the pictures!
So long and farewell…
Thanks guys for your support!

Mr Afiq from Durham

happy faces

with hafiz

Nice view

Again with scenic view

Pre Boxing Day
It was the day Afiq came to Plymouth from Durham.
Durham? It might wonder you where it is and how to pronounce it right?
Durham located up to the midland (Near Newcastle)
I promised Afiq to bring him to the local best Fish & Chips. It’s worth of your money to enjoy the crispy battered fish! Fresh and yummilicious!
We went for Buffet Like a King in La Tasca. Imagine with only GBP10 you can eat everything. Well specifically we can only eat the salads and seafood. (Squid, prawn, potatoes) But it’s still good though.
The cozy and Spanish style restaurant made our day!
The pre Boxing day event: we went to Clark Village Somerset. I would say the location is in the middle of Exeter and Bristol. It took us roughly 2 hours from Plymouth.
Shopping spree?
Yes indeed!
Not buying much as I would safe my money for other occasion soon.
The road was super slippery due to the melted snow.
The scenery was fantastic with pristine snow everywhere! I couldn’t resist my eyes to enjoy the view!
No doubt that the “fun bit” was only for a short while…
Once it starts to melt… It might ruin your mood and of course the scenery :D Try it!!!

At Jamie's Italian Westfield

The meat wine & Co

Long Queue

Too much!!!

Bicester Village,Oxford

Testing

One and another

In the name of Allah. The most gracious and merciful.
We live our life not for a long time. As we only borrow it from the hands of God. Put differently, we are going to meet Him as the creator. May Allah forgive our sin and whom shall obey to Allah will get benefit on the Day of Judgment.

Scene 1
After the subuh prayer, I received a message from my elder sister. “Pak Teh meninggal. I’m in Jb for a court case. Mama and abah heading to Ipoh with Yob”. It just a simple message nevertheless made me suddenly quiet and shocked. A sorrow strikes! My late uncle or I called him as Pak Teh. He passed away left my aunty and His 2 sons. I felt guilty as I can’t go back on the burial day. Al Fatihah for him.

Scene 2
A colleague of mine. After a tennis match last week. He told me that his wife was not feeling very well due to on and off of fever. I said it might be normal for certain people as we are now in winter season but not for a pregnant woman. The day after, he brought his wife to Derriford Hospital for a checkup. After a few scan/consultation: It’s confirmed that his wife miscarriage. I feel pity for them. A young married couple who has just arrived to start their new life in Plymouth. Such a big impingement for them. Be strong my friend!

Scene 3
A colleague of mine. She is pregnant (7 months). She already prepared some food to visit a friend in the hospital but suddenly she was the one who admitted to the hospital due to her kidney problem. (infection). Be strong my dear friend.
3 scenes happened one after another.

I am in the mood of not feeling well emotionally. I feel pity to my colleagues and sad for the lost of my late uncle. May Allah give us guidance to follow His Path. Ameen ya Rabbalalamin.

Al Fatihah

My uncle (Pak Teh) has just passed away.
Al Fatihah
May Allah give Him His blessing.. Ameen

Leisure

The kangkung or water spinach

Alluring Ribs

The wrapper :D

The Quorn fillings

The wrap process

Finish wrapping

The Output

The Fried popia

Salamz and good day everyone
Last week was really a busy week for me!
Almost finish my programming task and report as well.
I hope to submit before the Xmas eve. Wish me luck then :D
Nothing much to say about my event last week.
Oh Saturday morning I played tennis with waque and Afham. Guess what??
we played tennis in 5 degree temperature!!! Seriously!!!!
It almost 3 hours ok. :P
That night was the X factor finale (1st round) before the elimination.
I voted for Matt for sure :D
The result was yesterday and YESSSS Matt won! Guess what??? The organizer reveal that Matt won almost every week of public's vote !!!! hahahahah :D
To thana: bye bye your one direction (Anyway I still like their voice ok.. No offence)
Anyway readers this event seem to be the most popular activity for British people on weekend.. Seat back and relax ... enjoy the X factor. (40 millions viewers)
Whilst watching the show, I prepared the Fried "Popia" with Quorn fillings (Vegetarian) I substitute with the minced meat. Taste: awesome!
Please enjoy the pictures...
My lunch: Kangkong Belacan, Ribs marinated with honey and masak lemak ayam pedas!
I share some pictures :D

2010 is nearly end... Its just around the corner to meet 2011
Another chapter of life... Another aim?
I believe that we have set up our own mission.. our own strategy to achieve what we want.
Hope your mission accomplish very well for 2010. Keep up a good work folks!
I always do'a may Allah give us courage and His blessing to live our life to the fullest
I need to work hard and smart to achieve my mission in here. InsyaAllah.
Do do'a for my success. :)

“Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.” (Andre Gide)

Ok it's time for me to continue working...
Till meeting you again in another chapter of my diary...
take care!
Have a good day ahead!!!!

Winter Oh Winter

after subuh

ewahhh

oh

The Red Velvet Topping with Cream Cheese Frosting!

Frosting time!! :P

Oh Mr Chubby

In the oven

Half

Mixture

Cocoa : Fairtrade product!

Mixed Color and cocoa

Flour

The dishes

The actor

The zooming

It’s really a cold winter. Up until now I can still survive… Oh I will survive (Gloria Gaynor)
If you read the newspaper or you watch tv (BBC), they mentioned that it the earliest snow fall ever. Having said that, it became one of the worst heavy snow falling especially in north of England. A friend of mine in Sheffield said its very thick snow! It’s nice to enjoy it now but not after it starts to melt. I couldn’t agree more. Oh colleagues in Birmingham as well, please enjoy your snow period (Full stop)!
Frankly speaking, in Plymouth it’s quite difficult to have snow fall except last year! I was told it has been few years since the last snow fall. So ideally, Plymouth people will be super excited to enjoy snow. (My imagination wink!!) It was quite a heavy one but not as bad as in Midland. Albeit now we don’t have snow yet, but anything can happen during winter season. For me, it is too early to predict but I wish to see snow again in Plymouth. Oh my wish…
This season will see you gas bill increase rapidly compared to the other season. If monthly I will only spend more or less £10-15, I would expect it will become more than that this time. Heater will be operated at night before I go to sleep. Oh by the way, my flat is on the ground floor. Well if you live on the ground floor its much colder compare to the people live in 1st floor or the 2nd. When you heat you house, it seems you heat the entire flat as well (Conceptually) as the heat will go up. Of course I will enjoy the heat too. At the same time I’m helping others. (Sedekah amalan mulia )
Hungry? Erm I have no doubt that you will feel hungry quite frequent as it is cold. I just enjoyed my Twining light green tea and black olives crackers as a backup in school.

Weekend: leisure time. Cooking and have fun with colleagues! Reading some

(Note: Maghrib will be around 4.15 p.m and Isyak will be around 6.05 p.m. Officially it’s night. )
Its super cold at night compare to the day. Wearing glove? Oh it’s a must now, especially when there is a strong wind from the sea!!! This time I start to think of I need to go back for all summer time season in Malaysia :P (Berangan nak dok dlm air cond jugak bila balik… :D).
Conclusion during winter time: I live my life likely in the fridge. Sekian!

Oh so many things to catch up:-
1. I hope to see my experiment to progress well . (Full working system, presentation, ethical committee and Run full system)
2. A visit from a colleague from Malaysia soon
3. A visit from a colleague from Durham
4. A visit from my best buddy a.k.a brother from Paris!!! ( Comment alez vous monsieur?)
5. And the relax and fun time in London for Boxing day by the end of December.
6. Gamelan: I join the Gamelan group in Plymouth. They might perform it soon. Practice!!!
7. Last but not list a visit from colleague from Sheffield as the opening ceremony of 2011 hahahahah :P

Then welcome to 2011. My age will be remain there as 20 ++ :P (Jgn mare )